What are you trying to tell me? This man, Christian, I have deliberately cut him out of my life about a month ago. I told him I could no longer do this back and forth with him. I am weary of his lack of follow through. I am weary of his lack of communication. I am weary.
Why have you allowed him back into my life? What is it you have for me to learn? What must I teach him? Is this supposed to Be?
I believe that you bring people into our lives for a reason, I just wish I knew what it was. I know we don’t learn if we just jump to the conclusion, but with this man, I don’t know what to do.
He says he will wait for me. He says he will do what he must. He says he wants me in his life. He wants me. Do I give him me? Do I let him in?
I want to proceed with caution, however you know me more than anyone. You know I throw it all into the wind and await the results. You know I am so very open, optimistic, forgiving, and loving. Why put me through this? Is my lesson to learn that I need to be less forgiving and guard myself? I don’t honestly feel that that would be a good thing for me to be, but I don’t want to continue getting hurt either.
Your lost and confused son,